Feeling lazy

Work is so exhausting, and I feel like I'm just being pushed around like some ragdoll. First I'll be in Cafe, and then I'll be outside taking orders. After that I'll come back into the store and get drinks, make up a fry level, stock everything up and clean. I will re-enter cafe to help out if it's busy, and if not I will once again go outside to take more orders. And the cycle repeats itself a hundred times, plus more.

Ehh so I didn't really want to write something tonight. But SOMEONE is waiting for me to post this. haha WELL here's me camwhoring in my uniform.

Yerssss.. So. Urgh. Okay if someone suggests a topic, then I'll write about it. Otherwise, there might not be anything here for a while.. meaning a couple of days. hahaha I can't keep myself away from my blog! But I don't exactly want to keep repeating myself over and over again. Ohmygod. It's only 8pm. FML it feels like it's 3am.

Blah

Herm. So I've got this feeling where it just seems right to write something of substantial quality which is actually worth reading, unlike the joke I posted recently. But there's nothing in my mind right now, except for my longing for a massage, followed by deep, long sleep.

*thinks for 10 minutes* Yawn...

Okay that's it.. since I have to catch the 7:13am bus tomorrow to work, I think I deserve to sleep now so I can wake up early. Well I'll write something tomorrow night! Mm.. goodnight world!

Why tampons are useful =D

Three convicts were on the way to prison. They were each allowed to take one item with them to help them occupy their time while incarcerated.

On the bus, one turned to another and said, "So, what did you bring?"

The second convict pulled out a box of paints and stated that he intended to paint anything he could. He wanted to become the "Grandma Moses of Jail."

Then he asked the first, "What did you bring?"

The first convict pulled out a deck of cards and grinned and said, "I brought cards. I can play poker, solitaire, gin, and any number of games."

The third convict was sitting quietly aside, grinning to himself. The other two took notice and asked, "Why are you so smug? What did you bring?"

The guy pulled out a box of tampons and smiled. He said, "I brought these."

The other two were puzzled and asked, "What can you do with those?"

He grinned and pointed to the box and said, "Well according to the box, I can go horseback riding, swimming, roller-skating...."

Sleep

I love sleep. But I wish I could stay awake as long as I wanted, without feeling tired and drowsy... Stupid sleepiness =.=

Hints

Well firstly... omg I feel so tired. Physically, I feel like I've run 10km straight or something. And I can't even do that. Mentally... I'm fine I think =D

Okay so anyway, my main focus for today's blog is this: hinting. And by hinting, I mean... giving clues and whatnot to the guy (or girl) you may or may not like, and also analysing every single move that they make - even if it's not really a hint.

Hints... you give them to the people you like (as more than friends), and you will only try to interpret something as a hint if you like the person in return. If someone you absolutely consider to be a friend, and someone you thought of as family dropped you a 'hint' you would probably think it as just a nice thing they're doing for you, or a joke they're playing you, or something. Get my drift?

Have you ever sat around, thinking hours on end about an action some guy took, wondering if that was supposed to be a hint or not? For example... let's say that a guy pointed a line in the lyrics of a song about some really abstract topic, such as being a slow runner or hanging up in phone conversations first, and said "This is you". Then, after that the lyrics changed to love lyrics, and he suddenly nudges you. You begin to think "Was that on purpose? Is he saying that he likes me?" It's strange that you would do this for a guy that you don't like, right?

Bleh I hope I didn't make myself too obvious in this blog =.=
Well, I guess it's a good thing for me =]

Day 4: Is it really only day 4? That's kind of weird. Well, I'll do my "weather forecast" as part of this. I predict that my days will get sunnier, with a sudden halt to rain. Some areas will be cloudy, but it's a comfortable cloudy. Ehh stupid analogy. Basically, good things are happening! lala

Edit // I randomly came across this on Calvin's facebook profile:

약속은 새끼 손가락만큼 쉽게 꺾여...

I remember reading it a long time ago and thinking that promises should never be broken, and since I think that way, other people wouldn't break promises so easily with me. Hmmm I guess your opinion can change a lot, huh. Over time I've come to accept this quote, because it's true. Promises are so easily broken..

He's Just Not That Into You

"Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you, he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs. And someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, every story we’re told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a wonderful guy, maybe… it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is… just… moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this. Knowing that all the un-returned phone calls and broken hearts, through all the blunders and misread signals, through all of the pain and the embarrassment, you never ever gave up hope. "

Day 1

Hi, my name is Elizabeth Jeong, reporting for the first day of my journey back to the real world. I've yet to discover anything out of the ordinary, but the fact that I am on this journey at all really frustrates me. It's hard to see much other than the unfortunate events which are circling around me right now. Oh, a thing to note is that, prior to taking this journey, I found people to help me through it. Unexpected? Yes, extremely.. Because of several events which took place last nice, I'm glad that I've become sure of who are the truly important people in my life. Hmm it's a nice feeling to know that you're needed, and when those feelings are reciprocated back to them.. I guess you feel a connection. Lols I don't really know what I'm writing about.. I guess at the moment, I'm a mixture of being torn from last night, but extremely ecstatic from last night too and those two emotions don't really mix together so I GUESS what I'm saying is that I'm making an effort to stay happy every second of every minute of every hour of every day of every year. Well, everyone should do that, and then we'd have no war =P

I absolutely change my mind

Within 30 minutes of ... doing that... my mind has completely changed. I think I understand why I've been avoiding doing this for so long. I can understand why I completely didn't want to associate myself with anything from all that shit. I can see. I just fucking hate you. Everything that is said sounds like a lie - whether it be a truth or not is not of my concern. My trust exists no longer. I denied it before... I thought that I could believe; that maybe I would get something good out of doing all this. But no. I should have just listened when they told me not to. I went against my instincts, because they had been the catalyst for this in the beginning. And so I thought I could reverse what had been done. No, not even reverse.. maybe just take a few steps out of the mud that I'm stuck in, and begin once again. Fuck you.

솔직히 말하자면

I'm back again to write more!! Hmm… I sometimes wonder why I obsess over matters which seem so significant, but will lose meaning. They'll no longer be important matters at heart. Significantly more important things will soon surface in my life, and this cycle will keep repeating itself over and over. Life is so unpredictable. I've learnt that you can't expect anything, and sometimes, you just have to learn to adapt to the changes. Fighting won't always work... Only the strongest will survive, and really.. we're all weaklings in disguise. Underneath all the smiles, we're all just frightened little babies.

So even though I wrote this.. Haha You know that I'll write about it over and over again. I can't help contradicting myself. I'm a hypocrite then. So be it. Many more blogs will inevitably be focused on the topic of this post too...
Urgh. I wanted to write about my dream from last night, but I don't think that I can be bothered to anymore. I'll make this the end of this blog, I think?? hahaha… Bye.

Edit// Yes, this post.. also does not apply.

At the park

Sitting here at the park really brings back memories. I was forced to come here because I came 2.5 hours early for work due to mum needing to leave early for work. While sitting here, lots of thoughts came to mind. Memories - now such pointless things.

I think everything about me contradicts. No, let me rephrase. Everything concernings the matters at heart are given so much thought every day that my views on them keep changing, hence the contradictions. And another thing suddenly came to mind. *sigh* maybe it's just the songs that I'm listening to which are messing with my head. I hate how the songs in my playlist (which happens to be on shuffle) are so suitable for the environment I'm in, and yet it's the worst songs for my mood =__=;

Edit//
No, I don't. Not anymore. I can't believe I wasted time and effort and brain space.

SOONI ♡

//Edited
Hmmmmm. There are so many things I've been seeing, hearing, and reading about lately which is getting on my nerves.

Meh. OMG. I think Sooni is slowly dying... She's never running around anymore, and she's always sleeping, 24/7!!! She used to play a lot outside, and always run to the door to greet everyone, but she's slow to come out of mum's room now and seems extremely lethargic. I don't want her to die ㅠㅠ Gahhhh I've become so used to having her around. Without her, our house would seem so empty. ㅠㅠ *sniff sniff*

Youtube - Gradual Report

Youtube - Gradual Report guy

This guy is absolutely hilarious. I've only watched a couple of his videos.. but judging from the ones that I just watched, I would say that he could probably entertain me for hours, AND he updates frequently. Wooooo.

So yeah. I don't really have anything "proper" to write about.

Oh!! I watched Ninja Assassin tonight (thank god I downloaded a super good quality.. I hate shit quality movies) and I didn't really have any expectations for the movie before I watched it because I've heard mixed reviews on it. Well, I'm going to say that I enjoyed it, and it deserves a 7/10 in entertainment level. haha When I saw peoples' bodies just being sliced up into half (literally) it made me laugh.. OUT LOUD. Yep. For the people who absolutely hate gore like myself.. I think I can safely say that this movie was a little too fake to really affect you. Unless you're Esther. lol sorry, Esther just seems to freak out at everything =.= hahah but no. I think this movie was okay =] Very bloody, and some scenes which made me ALMOST want to turn away, but overall too fake to believe to be true. Unless peoples' bodies could really just.. slice up into two pieces. Cleanly. Like that.

BLAHHHHH

GO WATCH THAT GUY ON YOUTUBE. I COMMAND YOU TO.

How To Say I Love You.

Yes, it's another YouTube video. I love these kinds of videos. This one was really cute!

I Love You

No, I don't really love anyone. But I do love Joanna Wang's voice, that's for sure. I discovered her through YouTube, and I've been listening to her song 'I Love You' on repeat for some time now. Her voice is so sensual, and makes you feel.. and I think that the song would be good to relax to as well. Well, I just wanted to share that today =] Enjoy!

Never again, even if the heavens burst

참나, 나 정말 =___=;;
이젠 진짜로 "never again"이란 생각이 든다.
아니, 갑자기 난 생각이 아닌데.. 이제야 확실해진거겠지.
예전에는 이렇게 심각하게 생각한적은 없었는데.
별이 빛이지않고, 천국이 무너지면 뭐가남는다는거야?
나? 혼자? 참.하.
나에게는 이렇다는것이 오바다고 생각한적없다.
나는 원래 이런사람이니까.
나에게는 친구가 제일중요하다.

So. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...
Feels weird not having written anything for a couple of days. It's nice to sometimes express myself in Korean, because it portrays my thoughts and feelings more accurately than English could ever do. Sometimes.

내일의일게예보:
나는 점점 정신을 잃고있다고 생각하며, 내진심을 감추는게 점점더 어려워지기 시작한다. 가끔식 가지면 안되는 생각도 나고 나는 지금 무엇을 해야할지 가물가물하다. 조금식 조금식 더 외로워지고 아주조금식 미래가 두려워진다. 여기서 아주 멀리 떠나고싶다.

The Hole is Growing

It hurts.

It began perfect; innocent and pure. The little pulsating organ didn't know any better than to smile and accept everything that came its way. It gradually learnt over time to differentiate between different emotions, behaviours, etc. such as happiness, love, sadness, separations. By the time it had turned a mere 16 years old, it had believed that there was nothing that could completely break it down anymore, because it thought that it had been through as much as one could suffer in the time of one's lifetime.

And I give up writing about that. It's hard to really think a lot right now, when it feels like there's a hole in that delicate little thing, which is growing and growing and growing and growing. I think I was overwhelmed with the situation with the twins, some information I discovered (that I wish was not true) and just.. sadness and being tired. Well, I did sleep though, since about 4pm yesterday til 3am today. But I'm still tired, and I feel almost as bad as I did just before I began to sleep.

Perhaps yesterday was just a bad, spoiled page of Liz's life. Surely it'll soon get better, because.. that's just what happens. There's bound to be some massive huge awesome event, like finding a guy to like again. lol. loooooooolllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll

Yep.