Okay I really should be doing my TOK presentation, since it's due tomorrow...
But I remembered this quote I read on Soompi not long ago. It was "You shouldn't regret anything you did in the past, because at one point in time it was exactly what you wanted". So I'm trying not to regret. I'm moving on, slowly as I am, trying to become who I was before him. If we talked I'm not sure what I would say to him. But I guess maybe I will add him again. I really don't know what I'd say. Honestly. But I guess I'm curious. I don't think I like Jiwon simply for being that person who took Joe as soon as I let him go. Because he fell for her. Because he likes her. Perhaps more than he ever liked me.
Well
That's all in the past now.
I guess that's all I really wanted to say. I really wish I had someone to say all this to. I want to tell Solomon and yet.. something's holding me back. My mind is telling me not to tell Solomon every little thing that I think about. Because as much as I want to rely on him, what I'm really afraid of is the fact that one day I'll realize that he's not real and he's just some stranger from the internet. Because I want everything to be real. I want to be real.
