Tomorrow marks the beginning of a hellish 2 weeks; exam block. Yet I'm still thinking about Joe, and whether I should just give up. I remember every single promise we made, every one that was and wasn't kept. I remember we promised not to let each other go; I remember giving him permission to hold onto me even if I pushed him away, and vice versa.
I'm wondering if perhaps I should wait, or if I should do something to keep him. It feels like although he's with Jiwon.. there's still just a spark of hope left for me. Maybe, he still loves me.. Maybe he doesn't really love Jiwon. What if he does? He wouldn't right? He's the one that so strongly believed that love doesn't fade. I still do believe that. But I'm not sure whether he still believes it or not. And that worries me. It feels like I'll never get him back. I want Joe to come back to me..
I'm going to write him a letter. Yes. At futureme.org. And then I'm going to try and forget about him.
